Frown Fault

I did realize this problem a few years ago where my friend asked me about it. No, I didn't realize it all the while. Just after the question is bombed, I immediately look myself into the mirror. Holy shit! do I look like this all the time I asked myself, I look exactly like a widow. And after that I told myself to not frown more but smile instead which change the face figure especially the forehead.

But what happened today, I frown again during my working on an event. Okay, maybe I frown all the time still when I'm not smiling. No, I can't smile all the time like 24 hours, apart from the muscle ache, people will think that I'm crazy, haha!

During briefing, I frown while listening. And I got question by the instructor if I understand what his instruction. Although I'm not fully clear about it but still I understand the brief part, enough to complete my job well. Okay, maybe I shouldn't stand in front, I might just make a step to the back, some sort of displacement or refraction or mass transfer. Well, I forgot all my science term.

Anyway, I received a message from Hamza sending my photo years back when we first met. Ah, the bangs, that's what immediately hit me, sorry Hamza not you. The fringe covering the forehead might as well cover the frown too. Silly me. The thoughts of getting rid of frown is spinning all in my head.

I shall really make an effort on it. Frown fault. There's a chinese saying says the ugly duckling will turned into a beautiful swan one day (actually from a fairy tale). I'm holding to it although I had already long pass the age of 18. I have learned that if you want something (or beauty) you need to put on effort for it. Luck comes, opportunity too, but how many times will it come knocking your door?

Expectation vs Reality #2

I got addicted and decided to make a series out of it. Planting some me culture in my blog :)

Walk pass the AIESEC booth yesterday and it give me a WOW! The decoration is so much better compared to my years and the program offering have actually change a little. Was still thinking whether or not to join and go for exchange, it's already my last year and I want no regrets.

Expectation:

Was worried about my English since it had been quite some time me not using it.

Reality:

What bothering though should be the money. The fee had increase by RM200 for each program. Aiks, I shall go last year without interview. Now, not only facing interview problem but also financial (not a big deal actually but still thinking)

Expectation:

Yesterday a few staff came and test the fire alarm, today must be the fire drill practice! I need good sleep before test. Text my friend and ask if I can go to her place and overnight there and received a yes! Happily pack and move.

Reality:

Nothing happen. *silence*

Expectation:

Not yet ready for tomorrow test, must wake up early and do quick revision before entering the hall!

Reality:

School notice, the air condition is currently very bad. All classes are cancelled. Look at group post, test postpone *faint*

Expectation: 

Yesterday before sleeping, I had already set a plan of what to do today which include what to eat and where to go.

Reality: 

Woke up today and found out all classes cancelled and worst still test postponed, my timetable complete mess up. Hence, nothing I do today is what I planned yesterday.

Expectation:

Yeah, I'm going back this Friday! Concert concert, I get to meet with the kids. Gonna hug them and kiss them. I miss them so so much!

Reality:

Why you cancel class today, I should have not skip class to buy that damn ticket and then by this time I'm already at home. #sien

Expectation:

Today class cancel, so is it school holiday for university? *Look right look left* No bus. Okay, I shall just walk back.

Reality:

Not long after my walk, bus bus! Now how long shall I walk till I reach my destination, so far~ Oh wait, what happen to my philtrum, shit I'm sweating terribly and my mask is soaking. The weather is too stuff. Ah, it's worsen my now-not-good skin condition.

Expectation:

Oh, now that I have no class and test is postpone. I have plenty of time to spent. Working out list of things to do.

Reality:

Time flies. What had I done all the while?

Expectation:

Oh, Queensbay? Yes, finally I get to shop for once before I head back home tomorrow. It's been two months in Penang and never I once shop, this is crazy!

Reality:

Yes, we had our dinner at Queensbay but right after that we head back to car back and when home. Where's my shopping? :'(

Expectation vs Reality

In life, there's always certain point came out different from we we expected. For example, I come back to university with lots of expectation spinning in my head, it's my damn last year okay but almost everything is just as different from what it suppose to be, haha! So after a month and a half, I come out with this, my version of expectation vs reality in my final year. (I somehow trying to work out vlog in words form on a blog, consequence of watching too much Youtube videos)

Expectation:

Since I'm at home I been thinking to go for karaoke session, a cheap brunch hour session will do. Back in my home it's expensive.

Reality:

Came back to school, did I asked? (I don't remember either) I didn't even once go shopping with my friend in a shopping mall ever since I'm back in Penang.

Expectation:

I have a lot of plenty time since I didn't took up extra subjects. More time for fun!

Reality:

Friends are all taking extra subjects (foreign language) Ahh~ I'm alone again. What should I do now? *sobsob*

Expectation:

Since I have so much time, I shall study hard and score better this time! *feeling determined*

Reality:

Hmphh.. Study is boring, lecturer haven't complete his/her teaching, I shall watch my Youtube first (Recently subscribe lots of youtuber and have plenty video to watch not to mention my one week one drama thing)

Expectation:

It's my last year studying in Penang, I shall explore Penang to the max with bunch of my friend

Reality:

Friends are busy working, part time job almost every weekend earning morning for our graduation trip and this totally kill my expectation of fun. Nevertheless, we did go for supper (unplanned) yesterday, indeed very crazy just a call and within 10 minutes and we are off to Air Itam (a 20 minutes journey) for the famous duck rice and dammit that stall is not open.

Expectation:

Maintain a healthy lifestyle to boost my confidence (I know you might think that's not at all related)

Reality:

I skip my meal just by having extra biscuit and bread, sometimes oats and tea. Spent extra money to stock up long shelf life food in my room. About exercising? Not at all except friends who invite me to swimming pool and swim a little. Nowadays, the swimming pool in my school is like a beach, it's too pack with more than 50 people for around 8 swimming lanes.

Expectation:

Bought a book here from home to read and maybe get some insight of my future path.

Reality:

The book is nicely placed on the shelf. Well, you look pretty good there so I'm not going to touch you.

Expectation:

It's test! Borrowed a text book from the library and have great feeling to finish it within a week before test.

Reality:

Flip the book, what is this, I don't understand. Oh no, I'm getting sleepy. *doze off*

Expectation:
There's so many malay stall in Bukit Gambir, all look equally attractive. I shall try all the stall before I graduate. #feelingdetermined

Reality:
All friend move their hostel into in-campus and no one willing to come all the way to Bukit Gambir. What?!  To eat malay food? *confused*

Expectation:

Well, since friends are all working. Let me join them too. Fill up the particular and get offered. Yeah, now I'm going to work with them while earning money. *grin*

Reality:

Friend spotted another well paid job and want to let go the previous offer. Ahh, no~ I'm going to work alone? Really? How? *cry but no tears*

That's all for now. Will work out more interesting post soon if I'm hardworking enough since I got nothing to do. Teehee.

Finding Happiness

Was supposed to write an entry few days before about ways to find happiness which sorts of continuing the previous topic but ended up got hook on another drama series, I just couldn't resist the wait. Thereby the postpone publish. Was thinking of writing a post on the drama too but will consider it once again since I have a few more pending post.

I am a very optimistic person, always choose to see the good side compared to the opposite. Aren't sure if this is good but definitely not too bad. I have friend who love who I am. Sometimes, my straightforward might have indirectly hurt someone but definitely without intention, it just slip out. As I grow, I learn to be more of the observer cause whenever I speak, a small part of it will surely go wrong. Nevertheless, I had this bunch of people loving me still :)

Disclaimer: These are purely my thoughts and might not be applicable for everyone as everyone is different.

Everyone have their own way to own their happiness. Let the finding start :)

1. Don't insist on the best
People tends to always want themselves to be the best on everything they are working on, but the truth is there's always imperfection. Give yourself a break, the earth won't stop turning because of you. Do something unexpected, for example youth favorite YOLO! Or plan a holiday. pack your bag and just leave from the stress environment you are currently living to somewhere for fresh air.

2. Spend time with your favorite people
Your favorite people can always be your family, your spouse, your friend or even anyone else you find comfortable with. Talk to them and have deep meaningful conversation. Or maybe a hug without much word need to be utter (but this is rather hard as it can be very awkward sometimes). And most importantly always say please and thank you to anyone who done anything for you which include also your closest people.

3. Spend time on hobby
This is important! Cause if, I say if you don't get to work in the field you like, at least there's a hobby to work on after a stressful day. It can be reading book (something really tradition), coloring (the secret garden coloring book very famous nowadays), take a dance class, play computer game? Or maybe shutting the window and door tight and sing out loud on your favorite song. It might be easy as eat chocolate and drink coffee too (not hobby just extra activities, eating particularly).

4. Helping others
By spreading joy and happiness, you yourself will benefit from it as well. If you have time, it's good to be a volunteer for any NGO to help more helpless ones. Engage in meaningful activities not only gain you some knowledge where you can't obtain it from books but also expand your friend circle and also explore more. Be compassionate.

5. Practice gratitude
This can be hard at times. There's one season last year where this activity about practicing to write 3 gratitude each days failed by lots of people. Reason being everyday is a normal day for normal human being especially students, all you need to do is go to school study and get back home. There's hardly any extra activities on weekdays therefore it's very hard to recall what to be thankful of. But let's think from another aspect, wipe away all those extra thoughts you have and you will realize how lucky are you to be able to wake up today, having internet to access extra knowledge worldwide, able to fill your stomach with great food. Be grateful for everything :)

6. Set meaningful goal for yourself
Don't think it's too late. It's never too late. Yes this is indeed true! Not everyone have goal since they are young, they might not be studying the course they like the most, it's a finding while you are growing. Up till now, I still couldn't manage to figure out my ambition but I'm happy to set a few target and closely I believe I'm on my way to my goal :)

7. Stop caring so much about what other think
This is tough! I spent years to work out on this and currently still striving to be myself. And you got to stop worrying so much because most of the thing we worried never do happen :) And never put people down to make you feel happier as it doesn't work that way instead  you will get lesser respect from others if you do so.

8. Smile more. 
This is the last but also the most important of all. Smile :) You never know who will got attracted or influence by your smile when they had a bad day. Smile is simple, straightforward and most importantly sincere. Start practicing smiling and turn that frown upside down today :) You can look out more for google just by typing the power of smile. To lighten up your mood, dress up too! :)

Define your happiness, create it and spread it out. Cheers people :)

Me with positive thoughts :)

Was sipping a cup of green tea while playing a list of song I had from my laptop. That's my crave when I first woke up early this morning. I love to own the room all to myself playing music just to fill up the very death silent in the room but in the mean while I couldn't sleep alone in a room, I always need accompany be it at home or hostel. This is too contrast to be compared and hence I always fall into dilemma of choosing.

I somehow bump into an app on facebook called photogap.me that I found pretty interesting. Seeing my friend post and see no difference in him hence I wanted to give myself a try. Tadaa! That's what I got. What do you think?

When I first saw this picture appearing on my laptop screen, I was like hmphh this girl turns pretty wey :)) *grin big big* while admiring my side face (someone wake her up please~). I was wondering how I get those smile and sorts of flipping some photo I took recently and found out it's not all the same, it always that one moment. More homework and practice to do I guess, *joke joke* I aren't that hardworking either.

Anyway, there's one of my friend who look at the picture and say "No change dao also". My immediate reaction is like "No mehhh".

Was wondering if I really look all the same. I takde jadi pretty ke? Hahaha!

I'm someone who is always lack of confidence in almost everything. I always need someone or something to boost me up. I love to get praise, as well as praising others. Of course, not those fake and insincere ones. Why be selfish for just preaching what you feel deep down inside and let the opposition knows, it doesn't cost you anything. Cause I know every human being need those praise, it's some sort of recognition. It might as well unleash one's hidden talent.

When someone say I been exaggerating the kindness or some act people offer too much, I definitely not. I love to express what I truly feels inside me. I been more than grateful to have anything I got that drop from the sky aren't mine. Not everyone is born to serve you, those act they show are their choice, do you know that they can choose to not doing it or bringing themselves into troublesome. I'm just plainly expressing my gratitude towards them. 

It's pathetic if you couldn't count your blessing and express your gratitude. You are living in a world with just work and commitment. Live won't be as good if you don't have positive people surrounds you.

Family and friends are parties I cannot lost, they are both important to me. I'm not those super lady or they call it 女强人. I'm only independent when I'm force to. I rather stay in a room whole day then going out alone to be strong.

People say I'm always over positive. But why look at the dark side when it aren't happening on you still. 

Life is about choice. Choose to life happily bring more happiness than to earn lots of money. To change your current status is tough but if you don't start now then when?

Saffron Cafe, Prangin Mall

A big meal again this week after class with fellow coursemates. Everyone was discussing about where to have dinner, the worst most tough question for university students. No one knows what to eat but they clearly know what not to so the discussion begin and suddenly Saffron came to my mind. Saw this promotion on facebook posted by one of my friend.

They are currently having offer for semi buffet which that means you order a main course from RM14 to 50 and you get free flow dessert, fruits and drink. Kinda worthy actually cause most of our orders fall below RM20 without drink.

We first bring ourselves to the dessert bar to get ourselves a bowl of broccoli soup. Creamy and taste good when it's serve with bread crumb. It's like a starter to our main dish.

We continue serving our appetite by a bowl of salad share between five of us as we are not a vege person. So this little small bowl of lectures, tomatoes, egg, olives, etc do serve us well.

Waited for some time and here we go for the dessert before our main being serve. It's a weekday but still the cafe is full with people. We came in with 15 people and almost not getting a place to sit. The crowd totally shocked us, it's weekday people!

Anyway, while you munching for the free flow food a little bit of chatting, the food will be placed right in front of you. This loads of dessert totally my type! Never tried plainly meringue before and this totally nail it. It taste a little sweet and sourish. My friend told me the coffee flavor ones taste good too with very strong coffee taste.

This dish is a blast! So much like the pizza topping or the spaghetti sauce, haha! It's tomato with minced chicken, cheese and sunny side. Oh, the egg yolk is watery! A little dark side about this dish is that the toast bread weren't crispy a little too soft.

Baked Chorizo 

This is good too consider that the pesto taste good but the dish is cooked a little too oily. Nevertheless the chicken is good! A is given in generous amount :)

Chicken Pesto Spaghetti

This is the most attractive dish from all the above. The fried chicken together with the sauce make a good combination. So much a kid dish, haha! On a side note, this is what I ordered.

Crispy Cornflake Chicken

This is far most the most dining style dish. It's totally chicken breast, guess those who love healthy dish and gym people will favor this. We don't really like this dish though, a little to dry for us.

Sous Vide Pesto Chicken

After main, we continue serving ourselves plates and plates of dessert and fruits. We ended our dinner with a group talk. I got to say I really love this bunch of people. It's our final year, not much time we got to meet up and talk like these. Something worth the memory.

This cafe serve cheap good food. And guess what, there's no addition price for service charge and gst! Totally a must try cafe in Penang :) There are also two gigantic bear for photo session.

Things to do before graduate

It's been a relaxing month since school reopen as I don't take extra subjects for this semester. Foreign language is really not my thing, I remember how bad my French paper was, I practically guess all the answers to the questions and don't bother to check my paper. Other friends are picking Korean and Japanese subjects, some studying the intermediate level while some had reached the advance level. Guess I'm the most idle ones.

I do have homework, mini assignment and final year project to work on but still I always find myself having plenty time to spend or shall we call it waste. Was planning to join a society or organization and did do some searching on my school facebook group page but end up not applying, guess we don't have the faith, didn't manage to find their booth. So, I literally end up both my weekend with dramas and managed to finish two dramas in two weekends. *faint* 

The lazy me with this super hazy bad weather day start ordering the vegetarian delivery again, had previously written a post about it. Had been eating outside food all the while as friend are driving but recently he's working on part time work hence me eating biscuit and cereals in my room. Could really finish up all the biscuit and cereal I bought last month. Plenty of restock needed with the right flavor of biscuit. I'm very typical in type and price of the biscuit, I love bread more but the shelf life is too short. Not to mention the illegal parking saman we got for parking at the road side, there aren't space to park our car after turning for two rounds!

And to stop procrastinate, I decided to update my blog. Should actually post something on my Ipoh trip last two weeks but I haven't sort out the photo right yet hence looking back at my bookmark and found this, things to do before graduate :)

My coursemates are very typical with this last year we are going to spend together. He always said, it's already our last year, let's go! Or she, saw something on facebook, let's plan a trip to here (in Penang still), so beautiful! Guess everyone want to fully utilize their last year of being a student before stepping into the adult work with loads of job and commitment you couldn't escape. 

My biggest thing in my list is to go overseas for trip! Not aiming for Europe or US but any ASEAN country will do but with Malaysia currently fighting with the low current exchange rate, this idea is being cut off. Probably within Malaysia will do. *self comfort* Currently, coursemates are saving up money for our graduation trip probably Taiwan for a week or two hence less entertainment and more part time job. Not me

Reading through the list and found only some related ones where I wish to share it here :)

1) Attend all the events held in school

Probably will choose a few more performance to watch. Had been attending few concerts held in school and find that the ticket price is relatively cheap compare to outside. And school is somewhere you can really explore talents. For who is still in their early years, join as much of activities you are interested, don't back off because all you have now is time!

2) To dine in every stall or cafe

There's a lot of cafe and stall in my school. Shall really visit and try out each and every one before I graduate. Include also the outside restaurant nearby my school.

3) Dress up to school

Waking up every day looking into my wardrobe and find nothing to wear (girls everyday problem), end up picking a normal tee and jeans sometimes with slipper. Will love to hang out one day, shop like a girl and pick up pretty blouse or dress. But in fact, I'm not pretty also, so wear what also no difference, haha!

After filtering, I got only 3 out of the 20 ==! As some already being done like having class trip or drink in a club or pub while some others are irrelevant to me like confessing or returning student ID and stuff. I try to list out more and did a little google search but still nothing to add on to the list. So that's all for this post I guess. See you soon :)