After internship, I been sitting in the house for the following weeks not working for the very first time. Did I ever mentioned that I been starting to work part time since standard 6 after UPSR? Working in my aunt's laundry and live in her house for a month to save money for my graduation trip. My second job will be after SPM, a group of friends working together under an education center. We hang out during non working days until each of them continue their studies in colleges while I work till I enter form 6. After STPM, I'm even energetic to work from day till night. Working in a kindergarten in the morning and tuition center in the afternoon. That is the toughest moment I'm going through as I remembered I often received complaint from the tuition center and I actually thought of quitting but my boss not letting me go. After entered university, work through lots of small part time job during semester break.
But never once I've been working as a promoter or cashier, something I would love to try cause they say once in a life time these are the job you need to try on so you get to improve lots of skill like courage to approach people, to have communication skill selling your products and preach your products to your customers, to have face different type of people, to be a nice person and etc.
I have lots of things running in my mind. Never I had time to really think of my future. As in what will you see yourself in the next 5 or 10 years sort of question. I'm few more months to 23! So old and yet still ponder along the road. The road not taken said he took the one less traveled and would love to travel another one for another day yet knowing that how way leads on to another.
I believe everyone have a lot of I want this, I want that, I want I want I want! Or maybe there's a minority of quiet people who would just love a stable life in their room, not sure about that. I too as a normal human being want a lot, I want beautiful clothes, shoes; I want to travel a lot without worrying about financial; I want to have good grades in exam; I want to get great job and a bunch of nice colleagues; I want to be surrounded by great people and friends; I want to be a successful people and inspire others; I want to.... The list will goes on and on.
People never feel enough of what they have. "I'm grateful for what I have, I just want more." Should we call this greedy, why aren't this call self improvement?
Then we will ask ourselves: What is enough? How much is enough?
Well, you see there's no point on arguing as different people have different point of view and opinion.
These days seeing friend getting government scholarship, getting job offer oversea make me ponder even more. Is what I'm doing now not enough?
Yes, I have no high targets. My targets are all rather low for me to achieve but not to fly and shoot for the stars. *sigh* Guess I need to set higher goals, at least to fly once touching the cloud or maybe experiencing a fall over at least knowing how strong a wind can blow.
Currently reading a great book bought using BB1M voucher. Too much of friction books, time to grow and start reading non-friction ones. Hopefully get to write a review about this book. Trip soon with aunt and will see how it changes my life. Maybe after that I get to sketch out my growth curve and future plans?
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