Carelessness

Hi Tuesday! I experienced Monday blue yesterday, unwilling to wake up from bed for work. Got to the office 3 minutes late and hence got a red mark on my punch card, the clock in my company is early by 8 minutes so in fact I wasn't late in real time. And the jam yesterday took me 30 minutes to the company, the longest time I spent. Reluctant to talk in the morning and was busy with all the samples analysis. Too much of fun on Sunday I supposed hence causing the blue mood.

Today mark the 12th day of me being an intern working in a lab company. Still remember my reaction when I first got this company. My friend ran into my room few minutes after the announcement made by professor about our internship company. I feel rejectful when seeing me been placed in a lab company, I'm weak in lab work. I watch my teammates do the work, most of the time I'm doing recording result. Yes, it is a task! But friend said who knows you become a pro after working there and we might need your help.

My first day to the company, they separate me with another coursemate of mine. I'm being located at the food chemistry lab, something we had already learnt in our school, the test, the apparatus, the machines not new for me except the chemical and method they used were different. School is easy, but the outside world is totally something different. I actually forgot almost everything taught in the school as I had really little involvement in all those experience, it's group work. And my memory is bad, I memorize for exam hence it explain everything. Broke a cubicle in the first week and being warn to be extra careful the other time, and today I broke another glass centrifuge tube. I think I broke their record. *no eye see* My trainee must be tough to absorb the mistake I made. So sorry for all the troubles, I'll be extra alert next time and try to be smart as I should be.

Studying and working is so much different. My friend at work always tell me to enjoy being a student, enjoy study, enjoy holiday, go trip as often as you can and enjoy the freedom we had now. Cause if you start working, there's no longer holiday even if you had. You will be bound with responsibilities and projects. You got to solve problems that arise out of no where even if it wasn't create by you.

When you are at school, friend being friend, talk to you all the time, you have plenty free time to chat. You hang out to shopping mall, your favorite spot, fun hunt and try out all new stuff. You still study together solving past year question few days before the final hits. But when you are working, every thing starts shuttering. Maybe is just me cause I have problem in communication. You will be surprise when your Bahasa Melayu fails you. Discussing weird topic to kill awkwardness and it turn out even awkward. Got so much space to improve.