Underdog

I just wasted the whole entire day of yesterday doing absolutely nothing. Yes, you got me. Hanging around with no plan and destiny is totally an 'X'. The stupidity on me just pop out and say hello to me and I just cant concentrate in my studies. Mind wondering around alice wonderland. The worst part on the day ending up with peeling of my skin. Oh yea, its itchy. Bloods flowing out like a river non-stop. Playing with menstrual cycle, nah, its just a cut near my elbow because of my carelessness which no one ever knows how could I felt down that careless on a flat lane without any obstacle. Oh well, I just need to zip up my mouth as soon as possible and force myself to turn for a new and better one. I don't like to talk cause anything that come out of my mouth will indirectly make someone feel uneasy. So, I never really use to talk a lot. Things that come out will just be erm, oh, ok and so on. I just need someone to teach me to talk. Conversation like that ends very fast and suddenly it will be this total silent mode which is terribly awkward. Things is just attacking me and maybe me myself who always make this argument which is just aren't there to talk about. I favours perfection, everything must be in order and nice to be observe. Im not that very fussy ones but everything should have this backup plan to cover up the first plan which couldn't really works. Im being crapping too much i guess. Losing hours yesterday and today shall be the returning ones. No facebook today, Im so going to restrict myself and I know I can still live without it