How would it be

Walking on top of the cloud is cooling and freezing but yet awesome like what the picture shows. Somehow I wanted to escape from all those facts and cruel reality that kills. It would be pretty awesome if you get whatever you wish and hope to, but its impossible. Effort need to be made and somehow it may be a waste. People will appreciate on your hard work. The smile on them is enough after all. It melts your heart and no more hoping for more. I myself do experience failure. Working so hard but I get no return for all those hard work. Will felt kinda upset for this very short period but after all think on the positive side. There's always positive and negative sides in everything perhaps. With this, you will be certainly enlighten. Giving others a chance while we can get to rest for a moment, aren't this sounds good. It will be very tough to walk through. Hatred will always wonder and knock on your door paying you a visit, get through it and you gonna be success in your life few years after.

All alone again and yeah back to study. Signing off

It kills

Im just darn stupid. Though of closing the whole SU file today and I can be free from those burden. Yet this small tiny stone hit me right to my head and wake me up from this sleepy blury dream. I still left this whole load of report haven been done. And photo is something very headache. Kind of me to remind the next board for not repeating the same stubborn mistake. I shall get everything fix as fast as possible, not torturing myself. I learn my lesson. We can't really depends and rely on others. Ask lots is what we don't really go for it and this is what needed on us. Please be really kind to me as I don't have much time left, all due date is reaching so soon. I have to really control myself to not doing nonsense, being busybody and what so ever. Im currently holding nothing, im left there flying, hanging or somehow been thrown to any holly place.

Judging me

... you can't do that. Hey, I suppose you should think of yourself first. I have my limitation. Don't create problems and stand there like a stick hoping others to solve it for you. Acting doesn't works all the time. Its just a fairy tale of the sheep and wolf. Don't try to blindfold others and make them lose direction because of your foolish act. The fool will once awake and learn from the lesson. I did my job and I get pretty well feedback from others. But sorry for your case, you get comment by others and now trying hard to declare something which aren't right. Go on with it if you think its right, I'll pray for you. I get distract easily and I need kinda long time to recover from that scar. So, please don't hurt me with intention, I know you don't. I hope my remaining little trust on you do worth after all cause its kinda decreasing day by day which make me a bit worried. After expressing those silly feelings I had, I get a bit relief after all, I suit the name "chun chun" I guess. *sigh* Meditation is all I need before studying for tomorrow biology test ;)

" Everyone has different paths to walk, different goals to achieve. Stay strong no matter what obstacle you may face. Even if you should fall along the way, you have to keep walking, keep running. " ------ thanks pekpek

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Crying and screaming in the same path isn't cool after all, ugly instead. Think before you speak as words do kill somehow. I apologize sincerely with all my heart. Sorry for what I had done in mistake or in purpose. Turning to a new ones by drawing and sketching out my new path way (life).

Its not delicious

Its food web after all

and its C-O-M-P-L-I-C-A-T-E-D !!

Things are getting tough

Gotta really settle down everything

canyoureallygetwhatimthinkingihopeso

I couldn't believe this

Sounds like hacked email title ? This is what i felt recently. I got to admit AGM is the best thing to be happened and its a worst thing to be happened as well. We finally get to throw away all the burden on us and yeah we get to walk straight after all, no more arch back. However, there's always argument between the fake and real ones. Maybe this is what I called the time to judge how strong friendship bond is. Its hard for everyone I guess but we do need to walk across those obstacle and leave those ugly footstep behind, keep moving on to the bright side where sunshine hide.

Study !! I think I ruin my monthly test for maths once more. Why aren't it goes as smooth as how it is previously. More exercise needed I guess. Group study after school, anyone ? Chemistry is better I guess, please touch my target. Kinda in love with chemistry recently, its just awesome how its react by looking the outcome. Happy Birthday Mdm Khor !! Her birthday falls on yesterday which is 19th July. A surprise party for her yesterday by her beloved student (our class) *self praise*. Her smile is beautiful !! Its biology experiment today. DISSECTION !! Oh gosh, sorry this tiny little mice. Your heart is still pumping which I realize it very late. I take out the whole strength and braveness in me, my hand was shivering. My very first time and its going to be my very last time I guess.

How I wish im the reason of yours, that's pretty impossible I know. Well, back to study, monthly test is still going on. I need to get myself discipline.

Failure

Im redoing and recycling my mistake once more. Doing work last minute is just so not awesome. Tons of report to type spending me hours in front of this laptop. Im destroying my brain cell in times, very bad habit I had, knowing it but not changing it. So, this is me. Worried for a few hours, days and yeah give me one week and I will forgot everything which I need to worry about.

Another exam is coming. They called it monthly test. Next week will gonna be chemistry and maths. Scoring high scores is everyone aim of course im included. Hit upon the moon and you may somehow landing on the star. So, A this time, pls. Never once get an A in my whole form 6 life, sad till the max *sobsob* So serious study for at least this 2 days.

Everyone wants to know that they're not alone. But facts always kill. Lots of AGM going on and on. And I myself don't really like this. Its often ruins friendship, no offence, its just purely my own opinion. People comes and leaves, thats life. We still need to move on with or without them. No one can really teach you who and who you could not mix with, who and who you should be with or who and who you should love. Let the right ones in and let the wrong ones go. Everyone have their own problem, it could be friend problem, family problem or even relationship problem. Truth or dare game is super rare now, no ones daring to play this anymore, its just getting dangerous.

Everything will be fine as time pass. Wait for someone who approach you and tell you that you were amazing. There will and must be someone. You may say im a dreamer, but im not the only one. Stop searching for forever, happiness is just beside you. So smile =)

I just get to chat for 5 lines with my junior ? His profile pic is just super adorable. He is currently studying in this alike kampung place which he proclaim is not kampung (no entertaiment) ? But with this beautiful beach beside him is more than enough. Scream to this ocean with all heart when you are feeling stress out and this super nice feeling of walking on the sand with bare feet which city people cant even get to.

Not to forget, my email is officially blocked. Someone hacked me i guess ? And mummy and daddy got me a new fengshui bracelet and necklace, thanks even though I had more than enough of it. =)

Kids are still adorable for me

Underdog

I just wasted the whole entire day of yesterday doing absolutely nothing. Yes, you got me. Hanging around with no plan and destiny is totally an 'X'. The stupidity on me just pop out and say hello to me and I just cant concentrate in my studies. Mind wondering around alice wonderland. The worst part on the day ending up with peeling of my skin. Oh yea, its itchy. Bloods flowing out like a river non-stop. Playing with menstrual cycle, nah, its just a cut near my elbow because of my carelessness which no one ever knows how could I felt down that careless on a flat lane without any obstacle. Oh well, I just need to zip up my mouth as soon as possible and force myself to turn for a new and better one. I don't like to talk cause anything that come out of my mouth will indirectly make someone feel uneasy. So, I never really use to talk a lot. Things that come out will just be erm, oh, ok and so on. I just need someone to teach me to talk. Conversation like that ends very fast and suddenly it will be this total silent mode which is terribly awkward. Things is just attacking me and maybe me myself who always make this argument which is just aren't there to talk about. I favours perfection, everything must be in order and nice to be observe. Im not that very fussy ones but everything should have this backup plan to cover up the first plan which couldn't really works. Im being crapping too much i guess. Losing hours yesterday and today shall be the returning ones. No facebook today, Im so going to restrict myself and I know I can still live without it

SHE

I saw tears rolling in her eyes

Its all the wind fault who blows up the sand