April 29, 2010

slow dance

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast
Time is short.
The music won't last

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast
Time is short.
The music won't last

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift...
Thrown away.

Life is not a race
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

a poem written by a cancer teenager patient

April 28, 2010

countdown

countdown in 2 more weeks time
there is still 2 more weeks for me to enjoy my life
im going to form 6 in 2 more weeks time
emphasizing the 2 more weeks seriously !!

gonna stop working
ya, i asked my mum and is a NO from her
i knew that much earlier >_<
told my boss that im gonna stop before 10 may
and felt a sudden sad deep in my heart
ya is so sudden
i will definitely miss the kids there
new kids , old kids
i love you kids !! *sounds so weird*
i can list out the long list of the kids
and i seriously gonna list it out now
as i dowan to forget them =X *sadded*
kindly ignore the list of name, im just ss-ing
zulfadly, manesh, habibah, yan zhe, cheah jason, bhavanisha, johansen, samuel, ee shen, king jun, xin way, elly, nik eilin, sabrina, athirah, wan sabrina, sarah, stefenie sarah, irfan hafiz, chloe, elly, shun jin, yasmin, daniel, eason, hant shen, hema, jason ke, crystal gan, ming yi, shaun das, joaane, sharmila, shavien, amiruddin, aniq, izzuan, safwan, sharuveen, lynette, chin aun, amirrudin irfan, aida, yusoff, akmal syahir, zulnadzim, esslyn ooi, wei chong, wei shawn, akmal haikal, akmal daniel, nur athirah, raja shafiq, akmal hafiq, aiman faris, zafran, izzat, elisha, micaiah, samantha... i know still got, but then for now cant think of it d, sorry for the ones who is not listed

oh yeah,
cause after schooling i wont be online so often
no more blogging and facebook-ing everyday
so i shall start the 365 project =)
i think some of you guys did heard about this
this is a project where we take a photo everyday describing our life =)
posting the photo day by day with some meaningful line
so sweet isn't it ?!
it will be so memorable
i will start this project on the 1 may 2010 and will end by 30 april 2011
will updated as soon as i got the time to online

will be busy so soon
back to the schooling life, uniform life (i just realized that the uniform for f6 is diff, haven buy the uniform yet =X)
and as well as tuition life and study life
haiy~ 2 more weeks
and i have to say bye bye laptop
bye bye for now =(

April 27, 2010

form 6

the list is finally out !! and i got ............. ACS !!
mostly all convent girls in science stream will get ACS
but i wanted to go high school !!
- is near my house
- the quality of that school is good
- many straight A's student there
- experience teachers are there which are marking STPM paper
- will meet my primary friends there
- tuition friends too
- kh which keep saying bad things bout acs
- miss the time bully by tuck keng and yu jin which is that gentle !!
- wanted to see how tuck keng scream and welcome meeee there XS

i can still list out a long list for why i wanted to go high school .. haha !!
anyway, the web is under service , too bad isn't it ?
maybe too many people go and visit that website
as in malaysia there is a "checking form 6 list fever"
no one wanna be the outdated ones =X

the worst thing now is i haven print out the piece of copy yet
and how should i get to apply for the school i wanted ?!
gosh !! im always slow T.T

April 26, 2010

happy birthday daddy

Happy Birthday Daddy !!


yeah, after my mum birthday now is my dad turn !! another cake *smile* =)
too bad, he is not at home today, he will be back after 2 days =(
oh yeah, present =X i haven buy any birthday present yet either for my dad or my mum. i should buy one as i'm working now, earning money for my own. i feel proud that i can work by my own not depending on anyone. thinking of continue working as a part time worker while studying in form 6 later, is a yes from my dad, but for my mum(haven ask) will seriously take count and think about it

April 25, 2010

say no to maid

well this post is for me to shoutttttttt !! yeah, need some place which can shout everything out which hide deep in my heart. Im NOT a maid now and i wont be one too in the future. mum, graduate student can't get job now because they just don't want to work from the lowest, but i do !! but then, they wont be call up to pluck vegetable, wash dishes, lap table, iron clothes and all those stuff right?? i do know student now which graduate from university and college is like one big loads over there. the number of certificate they get can built one mountain, do you have this big amount like they do?? honestly tell you, my number of certificate can be count by hands, is like why so little XP
oh yeah, i jump too far away, back to topic. mum, working from the lowest won't be being a maid i guess, the lowest should be a secretary which receive low salary?? do we seriously need to watch the office toilet?? i'm seriously free now, unless working, i will be sitting down in front of the laptop or the tv; or go shopping with friends?? living a life like that is pointless i know, too bad =X but then, do i need to do all the housework?! is terrible XD i know how hard is the life of a housewife do. i'm sweating all the while, i no need to go for sauna mum, thats loads of housework will make me sweat enough. fine, being a children we should help out our parents which is tired after they come back from work.

ok jingwei please stop arguing how bad is your life now, you gotta appreciate it as it is good enough compare to the others. you are counted lucky to life in this sweet home. yeah, i really should appreciate how good i am now *smile* =)

April 24, 2010

yong visit

as usual, im a forgetful ones, too bad XD i bring my camera and i forget to take photo again, i do remind sc to remind me, but then she too forget and yeah turn out snapping me at mamak ==!



is great to visit pn.yong with that bunch of tuition friends again, but then most of them ffk, left only 6 of us today =X and well lets go back to the old tuition room and chit-chat, thinking back the memories we had there, sitting back our own place, its just too awesome !!
jolene, tiong do knows chinese , he is from hin hua, chinese school !! stop saying he doesn't look like, you don't look like either, haha XP
tiong, your driving skill is stable, although that hing kuan dunno how to direct the road to his friend house properly.
okay, i seriously don't talk much today with the guys =X
yong you just dunno how much i miss you !! although we are pretty late to visit you, is like more than a month, but then is still better than the ones who ffk right ?! we are the best ones among our class, aren't we , haha just kidding XP do take care of your health as you are sick now. you lose 10 kg, is really a great number !! hope you get well soon, take care ya=)
back to the mamak, the place where we goes in the old times, is really memorable, but there is no people at the afternoon, is almost empty, too bad =X should come at the night, that is the time where the place will "explode", haha !!
ermm, after that we are back to setia alam. oh sc, i forget to pass you your birthday present, how stupid i am XD sitting on sc car driving by jolene which wanna prove that her driving skill is okay.
jolene, you wasted lots of petrol by doing that big U-turn !!
anyway, enjoying "walking" at the night market with jolene. we are seriously walking and chatting as we dunno what to eat =X we don't actually look at the stall, yeah, we are sharing stories and had no time to bother about the stalls we passby. sorry aunty, uncle for the ignorance. will be back to you soon if i ever come to the night market again.

be what you wanna be



haha !! i found this cute =)
my first video posted at blog , learn for a long long time d , finally get it

this song is about ambition
is a little bit irritating but i like the front part
as im still blur about my direction , my future
too bad for me , no ambition =X

currently in love with tat strikeout stuff and
fiona fung songs which i heard from jiuan's blog

April 23, 2010

key

yeah~ i finally got the key, the center key. i know is not a big matter or maybe im acting like im showing off ?! no is not, i don't meant to act like that. im just a bit happy as my boss trust me. im just being honest and wanted to post it out as a part of my working journey.

we will surely get experience after working, just that some how it turn out as a bad experience. but then think again, experience we get make us a better person. yeah, it helps us to grow, make us realize about the real life.
the real world is terrible and scary. im a kids once, so innocent thinking that everything should be fair and square, but the truth shows thats is not. there is no equality in the world like what my mum always tell me. so sad, we cant change the world; either you follow the rules they made or you yourselves go your own way ignoring others.

more and more difficulties we have to solve as we are growing up now. no more time for us to play along as we are now grown up teenagers no more kids. missing the time when i was a small kid, there are no worries at all, ya is a no. all in my mind is just what to play later. the MOST difficult thingy that time will be that whole load of homeworks, ya as im from chinese school, still remember doing homework till midnight 12am. remembering how hard i learn chinese when im at standard 1, feeling that chinese is hard, cant even speak properly =X it take me 5 minutes to complete one single word and till late night my dad help me to complete my work as im too sleepy and tired. when we are young, every difficulties seems to be overcome by our parents. missing the time when we are in primary school, chasing around each other, running so freely.

anyway, everything is a past tense now. we gotta move on to a high level, improving ourselves each day with new knowledge, yeah !! lets hold hands and work hard together.

i shall stop craping d
as i always shout out loud but then dun really do it

April 21, 2010

outing

oh yeah, outing again with jiuan and kamho. and its sunway again. there seems to be the only place klang teenagers go for outing, isn't this sound so true? at least is true for me XD im going there by bus all alone, look damn cool. i can now knowing ways to go sunway, by bus or ktm. oh yeah, i just don't like to cross tat bridge from the other side, staying on the bus till it reach just in front of sunway pyramid sounds better isn't it? anyway finally meet them up as im late for few minutes, is the bus fault not mines, im waiting there since 20+ mins ago.
rushing for lunch as the movie gonna start so soon. its rushing seriously. the movie started when we entered, its dark, im walking carefully step by step, don't wanna fall. we are watching the "ice kacang puppy love". its okay, i don't like that ending, its a bit like no ending. but then overall is nice, funny with that malaysia style chinese with that "lar lar" thingy. is just soo malaysia. a malaysia version movie?!
trying out kh new i-phone ?! its look nice but then is hard to press with that touch screen version! i know im too rude, yeah i am @@ walk out to grab a bus and train. and this end the journey for today =)
oh yeah, no photo again =( just dunno why we don't take any photo although our bags do have camera @@ maybe 3 of us often go out for outing, so is like weird for us to do that?? ok fine, whatever. haha !!

oh yeah mum
we are friends, best friends
thats why we often go out together

April 20, 2010

driving exam

proudly announced that i have pass my driving exam without rasuah .. woots !! seriously damn high !!!!!!! (can you feel how high i am)
got 17 marks for the on the road section !! woots !!
felt quite relief after i pass the bukit ; felt more relief after the road examination..
my car almost goes backward at the bukit and im like oh ya release clutch a bit more and it goes back a bit and move front, whee !!
the next thing is road exam, okay my jpj is fierce and i really mean it. big in size and he looks too cool. the first thing i went in the car and i saw the hand break, why it is pull up so high, is more than 45 degree, you know lar as i am a girl, where la i can find the strength to pull down this high hand break, that boy in front, i know you are strong but then don't lar show me in this kinda way. after doing that 5 steps, start lar my journey. that hand break spend me 3 mins or more than that. i'm trying so hard, seriously pulling hard with my left hand, and it just cant goes down, no choice, using both hand to pull hope it helps, but then the conclusion is the boy in front is strong. okay, after that gear problem, i release my clutch and there it goes, mati enjin straight way and im like gosh hitting the stering, i know the jpj people is looking me at his weird expression. okay fast free gear and start the engine again. and at last he speak with his low voice, is lower than alto, tekan minyak sikit. okay after that, everything goes smooth. the worst part which he become mad is the last part, where we finally reach the center, the car in front is blocking our way to park the car, he horn for 3 times if not mistaken and im like asking izit park it here ?? he never even answer and the people in front got down from the car and im like okay fine, pulling my hand break and free the gear. the next people got up the car in front and he is like adjusting the mirror, he haven even adjust the side mirror and my jpj is like horn again XD im on the car for too long !! getting scare each second sitting beside him. the horn goes on and on non-stop for more than 10 times i guess @@ everyone is looking over here and the car in front finally move to the side without done with the 5 steps. oh yeah, i drove on front and finally can got down from the car, the next people is going to drive the car and im using the terrible expression trying to make some clue for him, okay maybe he cant get it, everyone taught im the one horning the car, haiy~ nevermind. when he pass me the paper to be sign, im like got cross !! and looking at the paper down there it ticks lulus !! wheee !! felt relief at once . i got juz 3 "X" . bye to jpj~ jamaluddin sir, i will remember i owe you one cup of kopi-o

April 19, 2010

busy~

im quite busy this week >_<
anyway will be free after tomorrow if i pass my driving exam
felt relief when my coach actually tell me "bagus" for each part yesterday for the last driving lesson, all the while he been telling me here wrong there wrong, and yet yesterday he say i turn steady, felt safer to sit my car and he actually wish me good luck for the exam. will remember that cup of kopi-o jamaluddin sir..
i wanna pass my driving exam !!!
my cousin wedding is over and yet i still got no time now to blog about this, maybe my cousin will be blogging it faster than i do.. i was actually resize-ing that bunch of photo, is actually 40 pieces only >_<>
ermm ermm, i think tats for today, will post and upload it next time, gonna prepare to work..

p/s : going to cook lunch for myself again

April 15, 2010

im cooking

this is currently my 2nd post for today .. wanted to post this soooo much , kinda PROUD !! haha XP let me start with some introduction.. look at the picture i posted down here

yeah , its a bowl of mee isn't its sweet ??! my very first successful ones with that half boiled egg which later that i can poke and make the egg yolk flow out and 2 fish ball there. YUMMY !! oh ya, this is two pack of mee, is not maggi is MEE !! haha XP

tats all for this post, just wanna show off a bit
(i know lar you guys know how to cook, some more going to become chef wei, haha XP)

happy birthday mum ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA !!


wake up early morning today, 6am !! is early right?! (ok fine , at least to me is early). well, is planning and telling my mum to celebrate this early before she go to work, as im going to work at the afternoon and will only reach home by 9pm+. is too late to celebrate as it left less than 3 more hours for this particular day. and remember the bad experience last year, because of my tuition i never get to celebrate my sis birthday, went i come back from back home there is only one piece of cake left there for me, too bad isn't it=X

happy birthday mummy !!! love you always ♥
stay pretty and healthy
you are the best !! muaxx <3 span="">
thanks for everything and i mean it soo much
thanks for forgiving me
thanks for the teaching
thanks for raising me up till so big
thanks for the advise when i seek for help
thanks for the sweet memory you bring
thanks for buying and selecting dress for me in every event
thanks for letting me to choose my own ambition and i will work hard for it and be successful one day
thanks for giving me the opportunity to say i love you
thanks for everything you gave me without waiting for my repay
thanks thanks and thanks for everything
you are sure a wonderful mum, love you
daughter
i know you wont read my blog
as i have call you several times
nvm , you will get to know one day

April 14, 2010

the eightfold path

11) Right understanding - Understanding the nature and origin of suffering, you should not just believe what you are told. Understand the truth of impermanence as every object will not be there for you forever

2) 2) Right thought / intention - We should fully understand the purpose of following the teaching of Buddha. We should make people around as more happy and not just thinking of ourselves.

3) 3)Right speech - Avoid lying , abusive and harmful words.

4) 4)Right action - Its closely related to the five precept: no killing, no stealing, no sexual misconduct, no lying and no taking of intoxicant (alcohol)

5) 5)Right livelihood - Earning money that does not harm the other living beings. No making weapons, do not control the workers like slave , do not produce any poison or pollutes the environment, no trades in meat or killing any living creature, no trade for alcohol and no telling lies to the customer.

6) 6)Right effort - Focusing in removing the bad and replace it with the positive. Doing more good things and doing fewer harmful things

7) 7)Right mindfulness - Keeping Buddhism in mind all the time. Aware and handle situation properly.

8) 8)Right concentration - Learning to concentrate on your breathing and calm down your mind – meditation.

April 12, 2010

the 4 noble truth

1) 1) Suffering - To live means to suffer, because the human nature is not perfect and neither is the world we live in. During our life time, we have to endure physical suffering such as pain, sickness, old age, and eventually death; and psychological suffering like sadness, fear, anger, disappointment, and jealousy. Life will never be perfect because our world is subject to impermanence as we are never able to keep permanently what we strive for, and just as happy moments pass by, we ourselves and our loved ones will pass away one day, too. Nothing last forever . so when you experience something bad, do tell yourselves that it won’t last. In the opposite, when you are experiencing happiness, do remind yourselves to enjoy it as it won’t last forever too. This will help you to be more aware as how you react when experiencing different mood.

2) 2) Cause of suffering - Cause of suffering is craving. We search for something nice to make us happy. But no matter how successful we are, we will never remain satisfied. We desire for sense; we desire to become; and we too desire to get rid of.

3) 3)The end of suffering - The third noble truth holds out hope for the cure. The Buddha taught us that if we practice, we can put an end to craving. Suffering can be overcome by removing the cause of suffering. End of suffering bring us to the state of nirvana.

44 4)Free from suffering - Life by the ideal of the noble eightfold path will make you felt better.

April 10, 2010

jpa interview

Phewww.. the interview is finally over !! waking up early in the morning about 7am , too scary~ especially yesterday jolene tell me that there are a changes in time . gosh !! she change from 8am to 12pm . and she say that maybe the 2pm ones will be push up .. this really terrified me XD anyway , wake up and check it was change to 4pm . *relief* at once .

the other thing here is the baju kurung problem . it make me have difficulty in walking . i can walk like normal after pulling it to my knee length , gosh ! too bad XD its XS size , as S size is too long for me , im short . i can walk less than 10cm for every step , imagine how difficult it is for me , is just not so me >_< charmEST thing happen when i saw no one wearing baju kurung for this year , *cry* . scolding myself deep inside the heart i should buy formal wear !! its much cheaper and nicer , haha XD this baju kurung cost me 100 bucks . anyway its over , don't wanna think back about that "sia sui" moment .

after handling up the documents , i find one place and sit down , is soooo bored XD haha . you know lar me , can't really talk to someone im not close with . anyway , when im place to a group , we talk a a bit and i really mean a bit . im push to the 3pm group as the people =) ok , well , i can go back earlier . i wanna leave this scary place !! shouting inside my heart .

finally , is our group turn . deep breath deep breath . this is a must for everyone i guess . my group consist of 2 malay , 2 "banana" and im the worst among them i guess , so called "rojak" , haha XD tell me about you in bm . ok well . still remember that no.4 talk too long and the interviewer call him to stop . a short one is too enough , you don't need to talk soo much about yourselves as they don't really wanna know it , they will forget it once you leave the room . this is the truth as we do joke along after the serious interview . the interviewer say that you no need to greet me whenever you see me at the shopping mall or somewhere else , cause i will surely forget about you , sitting at this room since monday morning and friday evening we will end our job , watching over 100 student is really a lot . our group really kinda fun and the interviewer is great too . we joke really a lot , unlike other panel and group that is so serious .

oh ya , you guys really need to read some current issues and general knowledge . as i get stuck when they ask me about the movie i recently watch , with the moral value and the bad part you don't like .. gosh !! crap crap and when the interviewer ask me what movie is that and i say i forget what is the title d . haha XD charm !! anyway , i have a great moment there . applying for the dalam negeri science . if not mistaken , there are 9000 people who get to go for the interview . 1500 places i given for luar negari and 1500 places is given for dalam negeri . although i don't really did well in the interview , laughing all the while , but then really do hope im the lucky ones for that 1500 , haha XD laughter is the best medicine for everything =) will still smiling although if i didn't get this scholarship .

i have so much fun in this interview , its a nice experience i gain as this is the very first interview i went through . the only thing we need to do is relax , don't pressure yourselves too much =) good luck to others as well . hopefully my group , 5 of us all get the scholarship we wanted lar as 5 of us is going for different courses . from the 5 of us , im the only who apply for dalam negeri ones . the girl goes for economics , the malay guy which hate physic goes for engineering (funny right ?? he tell us he hate physic but he wanna become an engineering ; and he tell us he going for chemical engineering which is more nearly to chemistry) , another malay who love maths going for a long occupation as i really forget that long long profession and the last taylor guy going for buiness as he is damn funny with his ideas in his head !!

April 7, 2010

i love kids !! ♥

don't you think kids are pretty cute and awesome ?? ya , there are seriously cute with their chubby face and their innocent look . whenever they make any mistake , they will show you that kinda of "not my fault" face and automatically they will be forgive . especially the handsome or pretty kids , they are so called the prince and princess . they are too cute and no one dare to scold them for the mistake they had done . we will just remind them tat is the wrong thing to do , call them not to do it again and they will nodded their head with that "i won't do that again" kinda expression .

this is one of the photo i took during my piano lesson . (i took it using my phone with no permission , shh~) this kids is learning piano too , awesome !! i like tat little cute guy on the right , he is really pretty cute with his smile and dimple . the way he talk and smile to you is awesome . haha XD oh ya , the kids here is discussing about the homework , using 不用 to form a sentence . my brain got stuck at that time , seriously can't think of any answer , sorry kids , i have been years never learn chinese . *regret* haha XD need to go for chinese SPM some more this year , gosh !! i really gotta work hard d , dun even get to answer standard 1 homework , sia sui nia ..

oh ya , i will be quite active this month , very active maybe .. haha XD reading lots of issue and will blog it by commenting or juz copy paste , as the star online blog will be closed by 30th april , so i will be shifting his post here , haha XP i like his post seriously , posting lots of quote of him to the facebook . okay , will end this post here like that for today , will see you guys tomorrow with some interesting post about my jpa interview experience maybe if i have time to post it , cause can't get leave for the whole day from the boss as 2 more people had ask their permission before me . >_<>
conclusion : kids are cute !!

April 6, 2010

random love post ??!


几米说: 当你喜欢我的时候,
我不喜欢你,当你爱上我的时候,我喜欢上你,
当你离开我的时候,我却爱上你,
是你走得太快,还是我跟不上你的脚步,
我们错过了诺亚方舟,错过了泰坦尼克号,
错过了一切的惊险与不惊险,我们还要继续错过……
但是,请允许我说这样自私的话,
多年后,
你若未娶,
我还未嫁,
那,
我们能不能在一起??

或许,当他有一天真的离开了,
你会发现,
真正离不开彼此的,
是你,
不是他……

请珍惜身边默默爱你的人。
用心呵护和把握每一份真爱。
不要对那些真诚付出的爱意熟视无睹,
不要等突然意识到失去时才后悔莫及。

April 5, 2010

yes , i know

It is certainly a relief if someone answers, Yes, I know, when we are trying our best to convince him or her. It gives us the impression or indication that our message has been put across. Our mission has been accomplished.

However in reality, it is not always the case. We would say, Yes, I know, when when we are getting impatient with nagging elders, persistent salesmen or just a boring talk. Our intention is to end the torture to our ears. If the persuading party takes it as if we understand, he or she might stop.

We also say, Yes, I know, when we assume we know better what other people are talking. It is good if the other party finds difficulties in relaying the message. However it could be bad if we make the wrong assumption.

Do we always say, Yes, I Know, when people approach us for help? Or do we actually listen carefully before we make our comments, suggestions or even judgments?

Looking around us, we find a lot of people, especially those in power, always say, Yes, I Know, but ended up not knowing anything. worse still when they make bad decision based on their assumption.

Should we also say, Yes, I Know, to people who think they know best?

copy from cikgu lee blog
found this blog from the net
not knowing who is cikgu lee seriously
anyway , hope this post inspired you guys too

April 3, 2010

sorry

soooo00 sorry ..
sir , thousands apologize from me ..
i really dunno what happen to me today
failed in everything i wanted to do >_<
i seriously wanna do it in my very best and i try so hard
but then everything turn out not like what i wish too

not in a good mood now
exploding i guess ?!!
wanted to shout out loud , but then where can i do so ??!
there is no where for me to go
im alone here facing the computer
i really need to go outttt !!
(papa , mama pls come back asap , you daughter here is not feeling well now , haha XD)
oh gosh , i felt im so emo here
nononoooooooo .... pls~
i wanna be the best and fine person ever
although la we cant find any perfect person in the world (like what my mum says)
but then deep inside my heart im trying my best to be one

appearing offline
this is what i usually wont do
but then today is just not my day
really wanted someone here to share everything now
but then in this time , this moment
no one is here , too bad i guess