a big decision !!

finally !! i make one big decision ..
yes , im not going to any college nor university
im going for form 6 !! tat tough tough STPM
making this decision is after i went for the UTAR open day
the old aunty say that if i went for STPM , there will be more choices after that for my futher study
keeping asking why i dont wanna take STPM , and yet i dunno how to answer her
answer her tat STPM is tough ? or should i answer i wanna walk the express way ? so after all i didnt answer her but smile to her , maybe this will give her the answer ..
yet i still dont have any ambition ..sadded
start to admire shiow chi which has her own ambition , so steady she goes
and im the one left behind , walking and choosing so slowly , yet not steady at all
anyway , i still got 2 months left from now to think about what i like actually
i like maths but engineering job just dont suit me as im not strong enough
2 months to go and to think where should i go ( i mean subject to be taken)
anyway gotta really study for the STPM as it is hard !! really really hard like what others say
hope i can cope it after that
as i been resting like for 3 months , not touching nor reading any book
my life is like so simple and lazy~
so form 6 is gonna start at june right ?! if im not mistaken
gotta set up everything and be prepare for high school again >_<
wake up early morning everyday is just not my habit for now
life without computer will be my life starting on june
sit down alone and go for tuition or extra class listening what teacher teach
throw away my job as a teacher and back to school as a student
gotta go back to my old lifestyle or even a worst situation
going to pass up my application to JPA tomorrow so that i can apply the school i wanted to go
no more nagging at last , i make my choice !!
anyway , gotta prepare too for the interview (in case im lucky enough for them to pick me for the interview)
and i hope im really that lucky although till now i cant even answer one question
even the 1st question "tell me about you ?"
i been figuring for 2 days and i seriously mean it
what to tell them about me ??
thinking and thinking hard whats my strength and weakness ??
oh gosh , i really gotta work hard and answer everything
maybe i should lock myself somewhere , make myself calm and go you can answer it !! haha XP
wishing myself good luck towards everything