tears

maybe i just didn't mention to you guys

im also fear of tears !!

is really scary as you just don't know how to calm people down or stop them from crying , maybe not you is just I

i really don't know somehow why people can cry so suddenly

when i saw your eyes turn red

when i saw tears roll down to your cheek

and emergency alarm rang deep in my heart

i know in just a few seconds you will be crying

start to find someone to help me out to solve it

but you are way faster than me

you cry so loudly

everyone is looking at you

maybe more looking at me

as they taught im the one making you crying

but seriously tell you im not

im not trying to declare anything here

the mind and brain is yours

i cant control everyones thinking

im so guilty

although im not the one making you cry

and someone just tell me he is in too big pressure

cause is maybe too hard for him

so i left and the other take over

i taught everything will goes fine after that

im thinking am i too strict

thinking so hard as if it can just break my head

but suddenly i heard a crying sound again

you cry for the second time

now

people are helping you wiping your tears with tissues

finally they send you out from my sight

and everything just end like that with no ending

as i grow older

as i grow mature

things i scared getting more and more

more and more complicated things i get to know

family , love , studies , work

oh gosh is just too much

all i want is just enjoyment in my life

but everything seems to be in the opposite way

i start getting mad or cursing people easily

(as i really dont really do it often previous time)

get angry because of others who treat my friends so badly

ok my mind is cursing her again XD

i just hate her

bringing my friend to the negative way

treat her like her pet or we can just say dog ?!

is hiding deep in my heart

is a secret so i cant shout it out loud

what i can shout here is just AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~ !!!!

maybe this is the most emo post i posted

the most

ya exactly this is the MOST

rusting at home almost everyday make me have even more time to thing negative things

maybe i should get another job to full up my timetable

working is not easy as you guys think

im always thinking whether my boss will fired me

small kid

a little small advice from me

pleasure the time you have now

study is a nice thing =)

try to love the school

you will regret later if you just miss this nice part

no u-turn in life

we can only look forward for a better life

i believe i will have a better life

friends you too gonna look forward for a better life

dun make me worry about you

as im a kepo

tata

i will just end this post like that

feel like crying right now while listening to the music from my blog