Wait.

Sometimes, the heart don't want to listen to the mind.

Eventually every thing will fall back to their original position. People too, I believe that they can go back to the old them. Every failure and mistake is a chance for you to fall and climb back up, lesson need to be learn. But, people tends to blind fold themselves. They tend to lost direction when they lose their pile, the strongest pile that once promised them they will be there for them forever whenever they did. You know you can still live a great life without them but you insist not to change back to the original you. You know you can get better when time pass but you tends to hold on to the memories so hard till you can't breath. In fact, one day you will be aware of the danger you are living in, you try to be happy and living in the moment with new accompany. But, by occasion passing by a restaurant or reading an article will makes you goosebumps, every flash back suddenly flush into your brain so fast that you couldn't filter.

You always have been the one waiting. Reply the message so soon that you never leave your phone too far away from yourself. You didn't know since when you start to rely on him so much. You think it's normal and that's what friend should be. Neither he understand that you actually stay up late just so that you get to chat with him regardless of the tiredness and the yawn while you are texting. Confusion always occur, no one speak honestly. The trust depletes. And what left over is guessing.

Now you tends to stand away from the crowd. You no longer open your heart to others. You try not to fall again because falling is just too painful for you to bare it once more. Pushing away your friend whenever they walk too close. A transparent line is drawn so that no one get to step into your world. You don't want to get hurt nor hurting anyone because you know it bleeds.

Please recover asap *wink*