To express how I feel these few days, I'll say I wasn't being happy....
Trying to smile really hard cause I somehow lost my mask and I couldn't bare to hide on another piece of paper anymore.
Trying hard to stuck myself into books but yet the mood wasn't there and once laptop is switched, my eyes just couldn't leave the screen even for a second.
Trying to make things in order so that mistakes won't be repeated this time but end up being said I was too stress and over perfectionist.
Trying to not waste time and cherish every hour where I can still breath but turn out waiting and waiting for time to pass by is what I'm doing.
Trying to wake up and go jogging in the morning since school reopen but end up lying in the bed feeling comfortable by myself.
Trying hard to be the person people want me to be but end up there's too many opinion from different people and I'm going crazy soon.
Although I failed every time I tried, but to try again is the choice I choose cause I believe that one day I might just succeed and be proud of myself. I always love myself a lot although having four cuts in three days, clumsiness just doesn't want to let me go, what to do. But, watch out! I'm going to surprise you the next time you meet me cause I grow and turn extraordinary every day.
Let's see what's beautiful today. Bookmark this article long time ago and eventually forget its existence till I look back my bookmark today. Almost every single little things make me smile, should have try it out one by one :)
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