Finding a way out

Without realizing I had already 365 post with me. Time flew. 2011 is going to end soon and everyone is welcoming the 2012. There's the forward post on facebook where people get to inbox ones and get honest answer. There's always a trend where people will get along with. Same goes to the tetris battle game. I somehow got bored to it. Feeling that my lappie is kind of lack. I always wonder.

Is 30 now and everyone might have finish or half done with their 2012 resolution. Here I am still feeling miserable and lost in the center of the ocean. Im feeling blur with my future. I don't have any aim. Im so going to read all type of courses till I got interested in one of them.
One more thing. the 31 plan is cancelled. So, I will be all alone at home now. *sobsob*. Eww~ damn envy and somehow get jealous of those who get to shop and hang out all day long. Me : forever alone. Having meeting for this very few days. Don't really have time for my friends. Busy woman here trying to earn money and you know she just want to hide all those creepy feelings inside making herself occupied and not so lifeless. I'll try to work out that day although still having no idea what to do to make it a memorable ones. Maybe I shall work out my resolution or any suggestion please.

Kindergarten is an awesome place for me. Kids are cute. Lovable as well. Im going to love them wholehearted.   Their smile make my day. Learning is a process of growing *wink*

Mitra DYC 16th

Its the 5th year for me. This is the camp which I want to join over and over again cause its just simply fun. Nothing really special about it but you will definitely want to come back another year as for every participant without any rigid reason. Im in admin department this year. Learning really a lot from the leader, from the committee and also the participant. Whatever we sow we reap. Feedback and comment make me grow. So, another year of fun for me being a faci for group 1. Kindly present you my group the "annoying orange". Damn annoying. Guess what, my group get no.1 this year, no.1 from the back, haha. As long as we have fun and enjoy every single game, who cares about the place. Lack of sleeping time, in result I get bigger eye bag. Swollen eye on the 2nd day which I need to wake up early for preparing puja. What more, I get new friends. Eating maggi mee for supper in the midnight with Ivan and See while discussing insect specimen. Taking nap but turn out falling a sleep and almost miss dinner with Yen. Carrying umbrella to shed Er in the raining hour scare that he might fall a sick again. Splash Justin with water balloon as I win the match. Treat from Jason. Random crap with Chia wei and Tuck long ride. Running here and there like mad as the distance of the pagoda and the toilet is kinda far. Bath for long hour like im soaking myself in the swimming pool during the captain ball hour. Sleep and wake up with bunch of friends make me feel warm in the heart. Lying on the floor its like straighten up my bone. Sitting there day dreaming when there's no one approach to my station. I like every single me in the camp. I can be my real self with no books, no stress, no fake smile. Wearing big size shirt, just that I cant wear shorts there. Thanks to my group leader, Chun seng. He is a big size guy in the sense that he is tall as well. Stop commenting him, he might get angry later. Kinda emotional sometimes, strong determination he had. And Er who bring laughter and joy to our group. He is very cute with his chubby face and his drawing as well. Damn cute la, everyone love him and fortunately he is in my group and I get to be special. And our group members, you guys did a great job. You're the best. *wink*

Its all after exam

The exam freaking days or should i called it a month is over finally. But somehow I don't feel like Im putting my 100% effort in it and the result might me nah Im not coming here to frust out. Slacking. Boredom attacks me. Feel like going for a swim and soak myself in that big pool which manage to swamp away all those negative thinking of mine. But i already done that halfway before the pa paper 1. So you can see how relax my life goes even its at the critical moment of STPM examination days. Wait, wait and wait is all I can do now. Result should be coming out on Feb ? Oh, can anyone tell me what to do with the pin code, where should we register ourself for being part of the very first step registering ourself in the gate of university.

Praying really hard for a high grade (CGPA). I already know 4.0 is not mine, Im awake before it hits greatly right into me. Honestly, before stepping in form six, I don't really see the toughness for being a form six student. There's no project or assignment to handle. There's not much subject to be handle, only four. But as time flew, stress came, where I don't know why is it turning so and so. It should be fine I guess as I had this strong base of form five studies. But nothing come right if you are not hardworking enough. And the late realize of mine causing me a little nervous. Anyhow, I need to really thanks all teachers who taught me. They are the one who bring me up and turn me into a knowledgeable ones. Form six life making me a bit mature compare to the what-also-dunno small kid. Make me stronger and tougher to cross over all obstacle. Thanks for all those memory. It brought me up to who I am.

Its time for me to think about my future. I got no ambition. Sad people here. Coming across to whoever who start planning the great plan of theirs making me jealous. How could they having this great confident, being that brave, chasing towards their dream. I am very jealous with those people. Even with my sis, who is furthering her study in engineering course. A lady mechanical engineer should be a very tough way to walk through, yet I believe she will get to conquer it. So, in this nine months time, no should be two months time, I need to really find out what am I to.

Long holiday for me and this leads me to job finding. There's already some thought running in my mind. But the tough part is always interview. My communication skill is weak. I don't really get to talk a lot in a great way. It always die away half way. Where I need to crack my head to light it up. Typing and writing is always much more easier as we get to delete by pressing backspace or rub it away using the rubber if there's any mistake over there. Interview kills me. So, what I need to do now is to contact those boss and see how it goes lately.

Reading you are the apple of my eye. Half way done. Is nice indeed. I need to brush out some of my time with accounts as well. A random thought of mine. Lots of things need to be undone and I need to list it out before I forget. Oh ya, I want a set of puzzle, plenty of time freaks me out. Im going to frame it out once its done and be very proud of it. Its all cause of my brother who manage to finish the 1000 piece set of reborn puzzle, its super awesome. Erm erm.. what more. Oh ya meet out. Need to really spend some time with all those old friend. I miss them. They must be missing me as well =P Camp. One more day to go and I really need to seek for sleeping bag. No more I guess for now. Tell and remind me if I miss out any. Limited memory space of mine. My brain is still stuck with all those exam stuff. Oh, I just cut my hair by my own, I can't really get to stand that fringe of my poking my eye and make me looks like a grand old lady. But after this cut of mine, I look stubborn.

Lengthy post. Random thought. Crappy ones. Hope Im not being hatred.