Can't really sleep well these few days. Still searching for the reason but i can't get any after all. People like me that usually sleep early get to stay up late till 2am or 3am is unusual. Don't ask me why, cause i don't know either. Im being very honest not breaking 5 precept. I myself wants a reason too. Im living in this bad healthy lifestyle. i wanted to adjust back my biological clock and im trying hard too. I guess everything just needs time and im rushing of time now, finding for shortcut is just a wrong way to move on.
Im in dilemma. Living in a confused life. I myself started to doubt on my own choice. I hate this kind of feelings seriously, felt bad. I need back the strength to believe on my choice, yeah i should, evil ones shoo shoo, don't come and attack the innocent ones here, she can't really take it.
Gotta admit that im seriously poor in this relationship path. I can't get to handle those complicated question. Yes for suggestion or advise but when the problem arrising me myself i can't really do anything. He helps me to forget about him but remind me on the other him, gosh. I can't really live a terrified life. This is just so not me. Im suppose to be cheerful and carrying a smile on me. Where is the strong me, please do come back to me, i miss you.
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