hormone imbalance

... Never get to sleep well during this freaking exam week. The very first time study that hard till late night or suppose to say woke up in the midnight to study. Sleep for least than 5 hours everyday is just way too suffering. This happens when ones don't study regularly but still wants to get good result or perhaps a C or a D and this is what they need to do - BURNING midnight oil a day before the exam, arghh~!!
I won't be staying up if you knew me earlier, but i did it for this time, SURPRISE !! Form 6 life is seriously tough, way too tough compare to SPM. My target is high, i have high expectation and demand on me myself, i don't use to get only pass. Im not trying to insult any others but i seriously will be very dead if i get only pass. Different people have different expectation. So no comparision between you and me please. Just let me be MYSELF.
Back to the topic, im going to miss the HIM !! come back to me as fast as possible ya because i MISS-ing you badly !! <3

Is time to study

Being very lazy during this 12 days holiday. Thinking 12 days is kinda long, so im hanging around. But time just flew fast, i left 2 more holidays and 14 more days to exam !! Rushing through my biology now and im lack of time. Like my dad says, each of everyone do have 24 hours per day and yet you are wasting it while others is working on it. I seriously need someone to insult me *i guess* so that i do have the ohm to study. I need challenge cause i love to accept challenge =) ml scold me more, you are right, im just a lazy worm crawling here and there, sleeping no where. Im so going to study and im serious in it, my phone is now leave behind, no more chatting around and yet i can save my credits. *wink*

Becoming a volunteer

Waiting at centro after tuition. Is kinda rush actually just knew it the other day night XD
My very first time being a volunteer, i taught will be kinda tiring as we gotta work from 2pm till 11pm but its just too awesome !! ♥ Our group, the SMK Tinggi Klang group are placed to work on the selling CD and t-shirt department. Is kinda bored at first as no ones come that early, sitting there whole day long and chat so seldom. Finally its 6pm and many finally arrived. Ermm is kinda challenging actually, memorising those selling items prices but after all it becomes so smooth. After all, the performance finally starts and we get to go in the hall and have a look at it, its awesome !! For the very first time i get to watch sooo many people singing as a choir group. The song is nicee and finally i knows why the ticket is out of sale and its very full inside. Cant get to watch till the end as there is people standing in front of our stall. Woots start to work people !! Keep on throwing RM50 into the box and screaming here and there !! Engsoon RM20 RM20 !! Everyone amplified their voice till the max cause is just too noisy and pack !! Done packing, look at the time, is already 11am. Time is running so fast XD Reaching klang is already 12am as we do met with traffic jam although is that late d, aiks.

Is proud to says we are volunteer from Klang, Buddhist society from High School Klang when people ask where are we come from. Coming all the way to KL for volunteering =) Whee~ im just lovin' it

Practice makes perfect

Im so going to brush up my english. My english is getting worst day after day. Im now officially studying in a malay school surrounding by chinese so you can't really expect too much from me. In this case i turn to be a perfect ROJAK !! i can mix up whatever language i know in one sentence. English, malay, chinese, cantonese, hokkien, hakka, etc. Klang people speaks hokkien and i can't really understand what they are talking about, i knew only simple simple words and i mean the simplest ones. Scold me using hokkien and i bet i won't be sad. This is how bad my hokkien is.
Oh ya, i almost forgotten about my speaking for MUET. Im not going to do last minute work. Ok well, i do it most of time i admit XD So now, off to find points for my speaking, tata

Again this horror attacks me

Can't really sleep well these few days. Still searching for the reason but i can't get any after all. People like me that usually sleep early get to stay up late till 2am or 3am is unusual. Don't ask me why, cause i don't know either. Im being very honest not breaking 5 precept. I myself wants a reason too. Im living in this bad healthy lifestyle. i wanted to adjust back my biological clock and im trying hard too. I guess everything just needs time and im rushing of time now, finding for shortcut is just a wrong way to move on.
Im in dilemma. Living in a confused life. I myself started to doubt on my own choice. I hate this kind of feelings seriously, felt bad. I need back the strength to believe on my choice, yeah i should, evil ones shoo shoo, don't come and attack the innocent ones here, she can't really take it.
Gotta admit that im seriously poor in this relationship path. I can't get to handle those complicated question. Yes for suggestion or advise but when the problem arrising me myself i can't really do anything. He helps me to forget about him but remind me on the other him, gosh. I can't really live a terrified life. This is just so not me. Im suppose to be cheerful and carrying a smile on me. Where is the strong me, please do come back to me, i miss you.

一样的表情，不一样的心情

微笑不代表我开心，
流泪不一定是难过，
牵手可以是个理由，
拥抱也未必是相爱，
离开也可能还深爱，
人就是这么奇怪的动物。

同一样的表情，
同一样的文字，
却有着那么多不同的意思。

从前我们笑就是笑，
我们哭就是哭，
就是那么的简单，
那么的单纯。

可渐渐地，
我们的笑不再是笑了
笑的时候我们不一定开心，
哭得时候也不表示我们一定是难过的。

自己开始觉得自己很虚伪，
我们开始讨厌这样的自己，
但在他面前却又不能完全活出自我，
深怕他误会我们心中所想的。

明明不喜欢他和别人出门，
却老笑着说“玩得开心点”
明明就很讨厌孤单一个人，
却总是对他说“我一个人没事的”

其实有很多时候都好想对他说出心底话，
但总怕他觉得自己不为他着想，
总觉得这样对两个人都好，
只好永远地伪装自己了，
心底总希望他在哪一天会明白你心中的想法，

但是...

他永远都不明白微笑的意思，
他永远都不明白分手的意思...
人们总把不该当真的事情看得太认真了，
却把该认真的事情不当作一回事...

等到明白一切时，
已经人去楼空，
一切不复存在了....

爱情荒

fiesta de lunar

An event held by the high school buddhist society

Is proud to be part of the committee dealing with all kind of stuff

My very first experience organising such an event

The event can says to be smooth and success perhaps

I personally like the last part, its kinda touch

Our very first time dancing with those red ribbons

This is part of the committees

enjoy working with them as a team

They are all kinda sweet and nice, aren't them ??

some went back early as is already late night went we are taking this photo as this is the only time we can rest after rushing and dealing with all the mess leftover

This is all of us (the committees and the participants), not to mention whoever who had leave

Thanks guy for lighten up my day

having fun seriously with all the cute and young ones

Friends , thanks for your help by entertaining the guests

Special thanks for keji and chicken , you guys did a good job !! (see how good i am to praise you two here)
Chicken you better fix back my image together with my name

*free style*
I bet you guys can't get to find me in this pic >_<

The 181 girl and 180 boy !!
Im taller than es *proud*

The arus perdana =)
this time you cant get to cover my face , wahahaha !!
this particular guy actually wanna show his red hand

the girls =)
some cheer pls~



The 250910 event is over !!
and now waiting for the celebration as we do earn some profits >_<

guys keep in touch ya