sorry i'm not there

sorry im not there when you need me

or perhaps you don't need me

but i really feel sad when reading your blog

i'm not the one beside you when you cry

well , i admit i hate you in the previous time

when we are in primary school ,

when you change place with my partner and sit beside me

i hate you that much that time

i'm a small kid that time and yet still not mature

what in my mind that time is "why you rampas my partner ?"

sorry for being immature that time

in the secondary school i feel far apart from you

after we graduate , we are close to each other once again

you share your secret with me

i felt proud because you trust me

and i promise not to spread it out

and i did it !! not even one word

after graduate , both of us when to work in different direction

but we still keep in touch

you started to write blog

and i will seriously go and view it although i don't know what you are writing (japanese)

but because of me

you write the post in chinese so that i can read

i really appreciate it a lot

but what i see now is like oh gosh

you know i hate cigarette and drugs

but now you do it all

you smoke and drinking alcohol to make yourselves drunk

well , i know you are on pressure , great pressure

i really know and understand

but please don't smoke again

it really damage your health

please~ for my sag

you learn science and you know well the bad effect it will bring

you do it all because you are sad

well , you can express it in other way

you really gotta stay away from that

you will get addicted in not much time from now

you are clever just that you don't put effort in what you doing

you is born natural in this situation

you like to mix with boys

maybe like what you say

no one knows you well and maybe i'm also the one

i admit i'm maybe the one

but till now , the information of you is enough for me

well this post is actually replying someone

just ignore it if you feel uncomfortable

tears rolling in my eyes

start to swallow my saliva so hardly

and im listening to that touchy song "好朋友" some more

oh gosh , i just hate myself now

i can't even lend a hand for you guys

i'm really a failure to be a friend like that