Exam Period

... by the way, it's also the last day of 2013. Everyone, almost if not, went for countdown and I'm here stuck in this room with four flat walls, one window and one door not for studying nor revision but slacking. Yes, you hear me. I use the word slack. Old woman here needs motivation to study, need people to accompany and need to people to scold a lot. This is how terrible I had turn to. I guess I just don't know how to work out on study already. Nevermind, no worries on me, I'll still find my way out.

Countdown is part of the thing I always looking forward to, especially with a bunch of friends I love. It some sort of gathering, chit-chatting, crapping or just chilling, watching free firework, wishing one another with the best wishes and the greatest blessing. So, I was actually on a plan but there's always uncertainty in every thing right. One plan down as friend is in terribly sick situation :( Get well soon please, no burning midnight oil for finals as it really hurts our body system. Another plan down, as me myself wasn't feeling well as well and well it's raining, I'm lazy to walk out. Gaining big tummy, result of being a lazy bum.

Resolution for 2014 will be post soon after I finish my papers. Written out a few but it wasn't complete yet, I know I have a lot to resolve, haha!

Last but not least, Happy New Year peepo! 2014 is coming soon in another 4 hours. *smile wide wide*

I won't speak

... cause you neither wants to listen.

Human tends to only love to listen to nice sweet thing. No ones love to listen to comment, feedback moreover criticize. But, come on, no one is perfect.

I now understand Teacher Teressa I guess. She's the principle of the kindergarten I worked previously. She has a very nice smile. She always show us the positive side of everything. Although some time we were being complaint by the kids' parents but no matter what she will stand on our side. She once said, she will always be on our side no matter what we did is right or wrong. We are the one she chose and employed to work as a team. She chose to trust and believe us in all her heart. She's the one I respect and admire.

And now I'm currently a manager under an organization; a department; a team. I trust my members full-hearted, don't try to doubt them. I believe their capability on working; I believe what they told me is the truth that I need to believe in; I believe that every one of them will shine bright like a diamond. You can say I'm emotional perhaps but this is what I want to deliver.

Today is the second general training for this term and we are very proud to have Wilson as a presenter to present what's PIE and his journey and experience in life and also in AIESEC. First of all, I haven't have time to read through the handout given but will dig out some quality time to study the whole thing. But here, I would like to share some words of his:

1. Learn to love what you do
2. Never too young to dream big - don't lose your dream

3. Stay hungry for success

4. Work hard; be kind. And amazing things will await for you

Apart from the talk. I received my first sugar cube from my member through the self esteem session I conducted last department meeting. I called this session the high five session. Firstly, I called them to trace out both of their hand in a piece of A4 paper and after that write down a message they want to deliver to the particular person to boost up their self esteem. The trick here is you have only two hand so you get to only choose two person to write a message and you are not leaving your name down like the normal sugar cube you received. While I'm giving out the hands I collected to the members today, I can see the smile on their face. They are surprise that someone actually write for them and it's very warm to receive such sugar cube as this make them realize that there are still people who care for them, it's an encouragement for them to keep going. So, here's mine. Thanks for reminding me that I'm still useful in a way.

"One thing I like about AIESEC, there's always inspiring people who deliver motivation to me when I feel demotivated." - Toon

USM International Week

Like what the name sounds, its international including the organizing committee, the exhibitor and the participant. It's a week event which ended yesterday and now I'm badly into these post event syndrome. I can't concentrate in what I'm doing and apparently I'm having 3 tests for this coming week. The whole week is lots of complain and comment, I literally skip all the classes last week for this and you know what, I have test that Friday. I'm really proud of myself of being capable at the moment. Anyhow, it ends up with joy. I miss the people and the busyness routine I had.

Took a lot of photo for this whole event. Please be noted that I'm going to float this post with a lot of photos. Here comes the day 1 photo with my boss, Hamza. He come from Egypt; he is tall; he is funny; he is a pharmacy student; he can chat with you till midnight; and he is single! Anyone wants to grab him? He is the handsome and popular ones among the organizing committee they said. He love taking photo and we literally take picture everyday.

This is what we do. Laptop, wire, speaker, screen and projector is the thing we used. We are from the division of Cultural Movie Festival. We have only two people in this division which is me and him. Girls get jealous and he's always being tease by me :p

The first day starts with opening ceremony with those VIP and this is the group photo of organizing committee from PSA, PETAS and AIESEC.

On the second day, I'm much more free compared to the first day so I decided to walk around the exhibition booth since today is the last day for exhibition.

The Japan costume they wear to dance.

The Iraq costume where they wear during fuction or dinner.

The Vietnam guy with the traditional clothes. His name is Than. There's another Vietnam guy named Nhym where I don't get the chance to take photo with him :( Anyway, I'm happy when they remember my name.

The Indonesia traditional instrument

The Indonesian costume as in the "hat". The costume is too heavy and very difficult to wear.

My first henna. But the ink doesn't last long. It faded that night itself :(

Henna from Iraq

Posing with henna on my left hand.

Sharing session of students from Thailand and Vietnam. They fly all the way here just for these. I'm really into stepping out of my comfort zone visiting all other country

 A photo of the organizing committee during rehearsal before our grand event the Gala Night. 

In charge of the special guest. I love kids more than man :p

A photo with the representative of Malaysia

With my boss with the traditional clothes of other country not his :p

Nice to meet Hayden. He's from the engineering campus. He's really cute enjoying himself standing at the door greeting the audience "huan ying"

With the Vietnam staff (their teacher). He added me on facebook even on the first day night.

A photo with them again without Nhym

A photo with Mina and the little cute girl

 Lastly, this is the group photo of the organizing committee of AIESEC. We are happy on our job done and the commitment we have for this event. Although there's a lot of last minute work and things hitting us down, we are still strong enough to withstand it and work on the circumstances that we are facing. What push you down makes you stronger, we are now a tougher human. We support each other and help out one another. I believe we will grow like never before. I cherish the opportunity given and the memories we go through together. It's my pleasure working with this bunch of people.

Rest if you are tired. Photo taken by Hamza.

iPersonic says...

I'm...

Reliable Realists are down-to-earth and responsible-minded. They are precise, reserved and demanding. Their most prominent quality is reliability and they will always make every effort to keep any promise given.

Reliable Realists are more quiet and serious persons, they do not talk a lot but they are good listeners. They sometimes seem reserved and distant to outsiders although they often have a great deal of wit and esprit. Their strong points are thoroughness, a marked sense of justice, doggedness bordering on pigheadedness and a pragmatic, vigorous and purposeful manner. Reliable Realists do not dither about if something has to be done. They do what is necessary without wasting words. 

This personality type not only expects a lot of himself but also of others. Once Reliable Realists have set their mind on something, it is difficult to persuade them otherwise. They do not like to leave anything to chance. Planning means safety to Reliable Realists, as well as order and discipline. They have no problem respecting authorities and hierarchies but do not like to delegate tasks. They are certain that others would not deal with them as conscientiously as they do. In management positions, they are very task-oriented - they make sure that things are well done; however, they do not have a great deal of interest in personal contacts at work.

In relationships too, Reliable Realists are reliability itself. As partners, they are faithful and consistent, well-balanced and sensible. Security and stability are very important to them. They have little time for extravagances and flightiness. Whoever has them as friend or partner can rely on them for a lifetime. However, it takes quite a while for Reliable Realists to enter into a relationship or friendship. They have little need for social contacts; they therefore take great care when choosing partners and friends and limit themselves to a small but exclusive circle which meets their high demands. They tend to show their closeness to people who are important to them by deeds - their partner should rather not expect romantic declarations of love.

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I don't need coffee

It's 4.15 am now. I'm not sure if I'm awake or having insomnia. My eye open wide and I walk away from my bed towards the study table. Your words are powerful, it does means something to me not like I don't care. Are you my caffeine?

Signing off at 5am

So I was just looking back

Time for a little reflection on myself. It's already mid of November, couldn't believe that 2013 is going to end soon after a month. Being very emotional these few days or should I said the past few months. I got mad pretty easy and frequent, the number just keep on increasing and not stopping. Hey, what's wrong with me, you are now a grown up lady, physically grown as well as mentally. STFU, this is life, bare with it and you will walk through it easily. Stop frowning, you are lucky enough to live a not-bad life. Stop comparing and stop bothering about others, you have your own life.

An article - He ain't heavy, he's my friend  from star online I recently read. There's still love in the world. "The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others" - Mahatma Gandhi, 1869

Talk about my resolution on 2013, yeah I look back on what I had wrote so that I achieve something not just for the sake of writing. Re-listing the things that need to be undone before 2014.

Still communication skill is on my list. English is what I'm facing problem with. Can't really speak fluent English, my tongue somehow twisted when it comes to pronunciation. And I don't want to always be the shit in a conversation as in talking nonsense or non related chat and ends up people conversation, I don't really know how to express what I'm thinking and yeah awkward environment where people stare at you and you looking down on the ground feeling sorry for interrupting the whole fun moment they had. And to make it not awkward you smile a little or burst out laughing on something not funny *sadden*

Exercising? Been giving myself lots of excuse. I need to really schedule out time for gym, tummy floating out. Is not like a thin people won't grow fat, the food digest and merge into their tummy which doesn't really stand out when they are wearing loose tee but deep inside they know they are ugly and fat like others just that they don't look like physically.

Smile :) Somehow I turn bad in a way not bringing happiness to people surrounds me but influencing them with all the negative thoughts. Ouch! It's not suppose to be in this way. Smile people, smile. Sorry for being very emotional these semester, I myself not sure the reason behinds the anger, it just burst out no where every time. I now learn to control, self reflection is always needed for people like me who always chase for perfection. Being very mean since the day I know myself. Always blurted something out unintentionally hurting others feeling. That wasn't what in my mind actually but my mouth just couldn't stop teasing people. Oh dear, sorry for being mean all the time. I couldn't really ask people to bare with me no more, I'll change, changing to a better ones. *In progress, please wait*

Exam! Something Ouch! Got the worst result in my life for semester two, of course the worst in the class. What to do, let the bygones be bygones and work harder for the next semester which is now. To be honest, I'm now not studying as in NOT studying. Is not like people who study and says they haven't. Lacking of motivation. Still unsure on my goal. Yes, I know, my goal is to be in the dean list but why? Something to figure out as I pursue my study. Target set: to read at least one chapter of any subject before heading to bed everyday. Will be listing down the topic and subject on a piece of paper and wishing to cross out all before exam week starts. I really need to be discipline in order to achieve what I want. There's still hope, stand back up and move on :)

Cheers to the way of success! :)

How I spent my holiday

Spending my semester break in Penang for this semester, I have no time to go back. Pack schedule I had since a week before holiday until now. And yeah, today is finally Friday, although there's still meeting and general training later but this is the free-er day I had. Haha! Two more activities to go apart from LLDS that happened last week which is the first three days of semester break and also MNC at the last three days before semester break ends. So, below is how I spend my extra three more days of semester break.

First day:

Yeah! We woke up late trying to sleep as much as we can. Been sleeping late for that few days, being an OC wasn't an easy task like how we actually look like. We are like a duck, we look pretty calm swimming in the pond but who knows we flap our legs so hard. Lunch for the famous curry mee and chicken @ Hot Bowl Nyonya Delight! 

Just right after lunch, we went for another round of food. Early tea time at 2pm for desert @ Sugar Dynasty Food Delight. The tong shui there is cheap and nice *slurrp* I would like to visit there again and try out something different.

Dinner time @ Daorae that night. The most expensive dinner I had. Awesome dinner with awesome people. Feeling too full after dinner so we decided to have a walk @ Straits Quay. Question a little; answer a little; and chat a little. I love to stare blankly at the sea, upon the star, walk beside the beach doing nothing and having people beside me so that I don't feel alone.

Second day:

Don't really take photo on that day. After spending a lot of money on the first day, we decided to save up some money. Having our lunch at the cheapest cafe in school which is called the IK cafe. And kuay teow soup for dinner nearby our school. After that head for a bowl of ABC and cendol. We ended up something crazy as the day goes too boring, so yes we head up to Queensbay to buy ourselves a midnight movie ticket. The Ender's Game! The movie we all opt to go and it turns out well. Supper at 2am as our stomach starts growling as we watched movie. Kayu till around 4am and finally the bed.

Third day:

Wake up super late again. What I had for lunch, Wan Tan Mee @ Plus Two restaurant nearby school. Shop a little at Gurney for YH's formal t-shirt. Dinner @ Harvest In, the place I wanted to go for long already. They have good western food with reasonable cheap price. So, this some sort of ends my three days holiday. Heading to KL the next day at 1am.

More stories to tell but limited time. Off to meeting again.

Wasting time day

Starting this semester with lots of things as in making myself occupy and busy. Starting off with recruitment for the organization I joined, follow by assessment and all those fussy assignments. And recently addicted to all those useless video *faint* Not even a bit of study mood I had even though there's 3 tests coming this week and another 3 tests after semester break. Crazy right, I know. And also 3 assignment and 5 lab reports to hand in after semester break. Not to mention about my already full semester break. I can really go crazy if I'm still wasting my time like how I spend my day nowadays. How I wish there's this one people who can study together with me. Dream on.

So, here's another day of wasting time and spending money. Haha! The last day before I go back to books. I believe I still love books, the attraction of us in this 21 years won't disappear just like that.

So here we are in Gurney Paragon, the managers of Talent Management without the vice president :p Stress free day with beautiful view. Sitting at the backseat looking backward, the sky wasn't that dark though.

Pasta Zanmai. Dinner for today :)

Soda create foams, haha! What I'm studying for Physical Properties of Food. 

 Let the food do the talk.

Me with my small eyes and half eaten dish.

 Next stop at the Pie Harbour.

 And after all the jiat hou liao session, we walk out of the mall and bye see you again. Lots of nice food here I can see, will want to come again.

Picture of the day :)

全世界我最喜歡你

那天

想了想

我的那个他

会是怎样的一个人

他要是一个成熟稳重的人

他要能hold得住我

他绝对要懂我不是一个完美的人

他可以说我的不够好但不可说别人的不好

这样太幼稚了

他需要会哄我

女人嘛，偶尔的甜言蜜语是需要的

他会让我心跳加速

能让我依靠

不一定要很有钱但要踏实

他最好是高过我的，我已经很矮了*悲*

他真的很需要有宽容的心因为我超闷的

最后要我看得过眼的

我目前的疯，来吧！焙焙！

21.

Its already 20 days away from my birthday and I yet still insist to post this. Lots of love from family and friends. Should have forgotten all the little details but photos and memories is still there. A total of 5 cakes from different individual on my 21st :)

The golden chain and key from daddy and mummy. Love.

Fancy Mousse Cake from King's. Barbeque before celebration starts. Had a little red wine after the session. Everything is just sweet and nice.

Random cake from Jason. Yeah, he just passby my house after meeting. So, this is it.

Starbucks treat from the AIESECers. Chooi Wen cup of Dark Mocha. And not to forget my boss, Wayne and Eric piece of cheese cake. 

Lastly, cake from my gang of coursemate. Unexpected surprise I should say? Yes, I was stunned when they singed Happy Birthday song to me.