A little messy

Im in a mess now. Searching for courses to study and yet feeling so miserable. Looking at my result and once again feeling regret for not putting 100% effort in it. Anyway, family comes first. Studies, you come later. Lately I found out im into the occupational therapy. It will be lovely if my job is all about interacting with kids. You know, I love kids. Adults world is just too complicated. Anyhow, this will be keeping in my dream. Im NOT qualified. Feeling lost once more. You know right, result had been release more than a week, and the dateline to apply those university is getting nearer. Most importantly is..... I haven fill in or even register myself in any place any course. Can anyone just point me a path for me to head on. You never know how hard is it because you just haven get to experience those torture. The young me always thought that by getting a 3 pointer is way great, The n-o-w me tells that its just way not enough when you are not getting at least a 3.5. Now i understand what I saw last year when some seniors are so upset when they get a 3 pointer result, and thats what im feeling right now. I hate me for being so indecisive.

Having badminton with daddy this morning. Its sweaty but way to nice having fun with family in a court where there's no people, love it much. It was a mini training for me where we play half court. 30 mins spend and im already very tired. Nice moment. Learnt a lesson for not being mad with someone which already mad, things will only turn worst then. Being good all the time will also never benefit yourself. But what to do, I am real being good, how to tear it away when its not a mask. Why you no reply, no, im not going to wait for you.

Here comes what we are waiting for

STPM result is coming out very soon. *nervous* Yes, everyone felt the same thing. Nightmare versus sweet dream. Have a hard time to fall asleep. So again, thats life. What you reap you soil. There's no cheating. So everyone can only excitedly wait for it. The thing which point us to our future. Deciding which courses and university we are in. Its show how important this exam are to the form 6 candidate which are heading and leading their way to the local U. Of course except those who change their path and switching their way to the respective college. For me ( no ambition fellow ), what I do is just wait, let the gred lead me to the path. Anything that lead to helping people will do. I develop this since I was a kid. This bring laughter to the needed and bring joy to you as well, its a win win situation actually.

别那样，我心痛

病了五天。好不容易过去了。。。

他，这个宝宝真让我头痛
他那可爱的脸
那爹爹的声音
怎能让我下得了手呢
骂了他让我心疼了好几下
宝宝，对不起
我那凶凶的声音吓到你了吧
是你不做功课在先
而我也劝了你一轮
你别哭了
下次得乖一点
长大了
听话好不好